Each day seems to run into each other. I have to take a second to remind myself what date and day of the week it is. Life is precious and every moment with dad is a moment that I will cherish. For us, time passes with a knowledge of what we are doing and accomplishing for the day, but for dad it is far different. He continually asks what day and time it is. He speaks of many different people who he has met during his life... some of them I am familiar with and some whom I have never met or remember, many have passed on but some are still with us. As he talks to them and of them, I wish I can be in that world where he drifts off to. He smiles often as he speaks of them and sometimes cries. It has been a whole new experience for me, some of it very painful and some give me a feeling of awe.
Mom continues to work through the realization of what the future will be. I have seen her and dad share gentle moments of love and understanding and also the painful moments as they realize that their time together is limited. It breaks my heart!! I am torn with a desire to pray for an end to his emotional and physical suffering but I also pray for more time with him. This roller coaster ride is wearing on all of us.... where will it take us and for how long? God has his plan and we are along for the ride. The ride continues...........
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